Let Me Tell You Something

Hello everyone

I am here to write a poem

Something happy 

Something Sweet

Something everyone loves but me

I write depressing poems all day

Not for the depression inside myself

But for some reason it helps me feel better

I am as happy as a clam

And feel lower than the low

But I refuse to let this take my soul

In reality I am ME

Who cares what other think

You can depict and destroy

Everything is still the same

Honest, loyal, and strong as they can get

I can even love you

guess not regretting

what you said

I open myself to others

Emotionally, Physically, Spirituality  

That does not change my sexuality 

I touch and feel the way others do

But that does mean I will sleep 

and have sex with you

My innocents was taken from me a long time ago

when molested by a man I did not know

But that still does not mean he took my virginity

It just means he took my curiosity

I can always forget that day because I forgave

Do not get me started on having to deal with guys

I could if I wanted too

If I tried

I use to think

I was useless, worn out angry, and tired

But it caused me damaged or started a fire

I am honestly saving forgiveness is the key

If you were me and I were you

Would you leave??

I left things in the  past 

as they belong so any relationship

I had stayed strong

And not clingy just let him breathe

not even once to beg him back on my knees

Love is not a weak emotion is those

who just ain't doing it right

There are better things to do then argue and fight

But besides that I was caught in a fire

My parents saved me

And I want to close to them

We almost didn't make it I could not run out

I was sleeping walking the whole time

and I almost did not make it out 

I was revived at some point 

with siblings five at the time 

with parents hand in hand

I never thought my life was exciting 

but bland

I could tell the world my story

Of my handicapped mom

and my man of dad

That would be to much for you

If you cannot understand that

Being bullied and teased does not compare

To the love my parents bond again and again

I kept keeping strong for other and not myself

Maybe that is where my depression came in

I never weep

Let me not forget my brother who is paralazyed

And like my mother he broke down in front my eyes

Don't feel sorry for him or I

I am just lucky he is alive

In all the drama and messed up situation

I always thank God

cause he is my station

So do not feel sorry for me in any type of way

Just thank god you meet me

because I am here to stay 

To those I have hurt I apologize

No one knew who I was in my eyes

I do think correctly at times

because these demons beat and bruise my ego

I could never speak to them and say

Leave me alone 

I love all those who understand 

But I loathe who cannot handle my truth

In life you say deal with it

But in my mind I have to leave

though slowly getting over this powerless thing

That does not have a hold of me

one and the same I remind myself 

each and everyday

I love you guys and all you know

This depression will never take a hold

of me once again

I love all of you out there 

But everyone has a strong story to share